Going to go.

OMG this is so exciting!

Not because that im blogging again; but because im blogging again from my note 2 on the way to Pangkor Laut Resort (PLR).


Now before you imagine me frolicking on the beautiful beach with the sun in my eyes and the sands in my feet – im actually going to manage a wedding.

Yes, a wedding. A mega big one.

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Always Believe in Yourself and Your Dreams

follow your dreams

Believe in what makes you feel good.
Believe in what makes you feel happy.
Believe in the dreams you’ve always wanted to come true,
And give them every chance to…

Life holds no promises as to will come your way.
You must search for your own ideals and work toward reaching them.

Life makes no guarantee as to what you’ll have.
It just gives you time to make choices and to take chances and to discover whatever secrets might come your way…

IF you are willing to take the opportunities you are given and utilize the abilities you have, you will fill your life with special moments and unforgettable times.

For those who are willing to believe in their dreams and in themselves,
Life is a precious gift in which anything is possible.

— Dena Dilaconi


Everything starts from somewhere (again).


I’d be lying if i said i didn’t miss blogging. I have drifted away from my keyboard and laptop screen because of work and my hectic lifestyle. I’ve recently realized that while i am hustling and bustling through everyday life, i never am really embracing life itself.

i forgot how it felt to slow down and took a deep breath. i cannot remember the last time i wrote something worth reading – of my life or the happenings around it.

i have totally forsaken my memory making process.

i’ve deciced to pick up where i left off; to keep the habit to storytelling alive. having a couple of new readers visit my blog is motivation enough to get the ball rolling.

(and it’s  my birthday month too! lol)

me iketeruEverything starts from somewhere (again).

shot in the head.

I had a dream last night.

It’s a little sketchy now, but the parts which i remember, i pen down.

finger gun someone


I was in a room. Like and interrogation room. No table, no chairs. Just an empty, windowless room, with four grey walls, and a iron door, which opened inwards.

I wasn’t alone. i remember standing on the back right corner of the room. and on my left, there were three other men, about my age; still and silent. Two were crouching on the floor. I could tell that they were all shivering in fear. So was i.

We donned uniforms of a certain make – which i can’t make out at the moment, but i was pretty sure mine was navy blue. Then we heard a loud commotion outside the door. I couldn’t make out what the racket was all about – i don’t even think they spoke English.

The latch on the iron door clanked. It was unlocked from the outside and swung open. We all fell to our knees – i looked down and covered my ears; as if i had wanted to hide my face from the people who came in.

From where i was, i could see 4 other people came into the room. The other three men were terrified and pleaded for their lives. The sound desperation and fear in their voices shook me even more.

Then there was a silencer gun shot; and one man after another, fell lifeless onto the floor. Shaking in fear as the third man fell, i remember saying in my heart, “Lord, please undertake for my life.”

I was shot in the head.

Then it was all calm. Soundless. I caught a faint glimpse of my lifeless body, crouched and motionless in the room.

Then I woke up.

Whoa, that was creepy, even recollecting to write it down.

I did a search on Google and here’s what they think this sort of dream is about:


Getting shot
I keep dreaming that I’m getting shot in the head with a gun and actually dying. Everything seems so real about it. When I can’t breathe any longer I always wake up. – Karen, 34, Roy UT

There is a new you coming up that wants to take over your life and run the show. So it keeps killing off the old you. You are getting shot in the head as if to say this involves your thinking habits, your opinions, thoughts. Also ask yourself what might be going on in your waking life that makes you feel like dying, or makes you feel “shot dead”. Who or what is “killing” you. The fact that you can’t breathe indicates you feel suffocated by whatever issue this is. Luckily the suffocation, the feeling of being trapped, makes you wake up. That is symbolic of “waking up” or coming to realize something. If this dream keeps recurring, visualize yourself taking the gun from the shooter and asking them who they are and what their message is. Listen with your inner ear and wait to “hear” their answer (it will just sort of pop into your head). Whatever you hear or sense is your wise guidance from this dream.

– Dr. Katia Ramanoff

Pretty fancy, eh?

Til my next dream. ;-p




It’s really feels good to be back!

Sorry for the haitus – i had to sort of my life.

Thanks to the people who’ve come in and out of my life for the past 2 years, i’m inspired to pen down my thoughts again.



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Stay tuned.

: )

Daniel – a man after God’s heart

Today is the last youth service of year 2011 and it is a blessing and privilege to have Pastor Andrew share the message to all youths…

The message was taken from the book of Daniel (Daniel 1 verse 8), a man who is famously known as, “the man after God’s Heart”.

8But Daniel purposed in his heart that he would not defile himself with the portion of the king’s meat, nor with the wine which he drank: therefore he requested of the prince of the eunuchs that he might not defile himself.

Daniel ‘purposed’ in his heart…..
He was young then, but no one advised him what to do. He has determined that he will not defile himself before God. He was faithful to God. He had faith in God more than men.
In the same way, pastor also encouraged us to be like Daniel. God is looking for such qualities in our lives. We need to have that determination in our heart to stand for God. Compromising will only loose us the grace of God. When we have to make a decision in our lives, stand for God, then God will stand for us. He will send power from Zion to strengthen us.
The key thing is: Daniel did not make that decision all of a sudden. He made it as a result of walking daily with God.

And the message continues with a verse from Daniel 6:22:
22My God hath sent his angel, and hath shut the lion’s mouths, that they have not hurt me: foreasmuch as before him innocency was found in me; and also before thee, O king, have I done no hurt.
Daniel was ‘Innocent‘ in heart and mind…..
Daniel defended his innocence, his purity. And because of that, the devil ‘like the roaring lion’ was not able to come near him.
In the same way, we all called to have such innocence, purity in our conscience; like a toddler. After the parents beat them, they will still smile, kiss and hug back their parents. They have no grudges, revengeful spirit or bitterness. We are called to be like them. Jesus also asks us to be like little children in order to enter His kingdom. When the devil sees the innocence in our heart, he will not come near us.
Therefore, before we end this year, make the decision to walk with God. Trials will come everywhere, but don’t look at them, look to Jesus. Have a good conscience with God and men. Judge ourselves and be humble. Let our conscience be bold and pure.
The service ended with a very powerful prophecy from God. God was calling back the youths unto Him. He clearly asked us to CHOOSE:
a) Give our heart to Jesus, to have a pure conscience before Him, which leads to eternal life
b) Give our heart to the pleasures of the world, that looks good for a while but in the end leads to destruction.
Jesus wants us to give our heart to Him, to trust Him, and see how He will bless us back.
Let’s pray with a contrite heart and a humble spirit before God to prepare us for the coming new year 2012.
Praise the Lord!

I’m Held By Your Love

In times of difficulties,
In times of brokenness,
We come into His amazing love.

Let the lyrics of the song speak for itself…

I’m held by Your Love
Upheld by Your strength
On Your shoulders You bore me
By Your faith I stand

Cherished by You Lord
Treasured in Your sight
So close to Your heart
Held firm in Your hands

So awesome is Your love
So mighty is Your hand
On eagle’s wings You carry me
Your grace shall be my strength

So perfect is Your love
You sacrificed Your Son
Amazing love reach out to me
With joy to You I come

Not by my wisdom
Not by my strength
Gently You guide me
Lead me by hand

Total surrender
Jesus I am Yours
Now and forever
In Christ I now stand

I’m held by Your love
Upheld by Your strength